I feel my host’s grogginess as she wakes. Frankly I can’t tell what’s worse, the fact that shifting my soul into another reality is more efficient while host bodies sleep, or the fact that I’ll be playing a part in a story I already know the conclusion of.
Not only that, I have to stay in the backseat of my host’s subconscious less I influence her too much. Oddly, that’s actually what bridges Yuno Gasai and I together. Being madly in love with people who don’t know or even care about their full potential. Sometimes I wish we could’ve made a connection about our parents. That at least would’ve made her more developed.
Instead she’s full of trauma, unable to tell if her mother force-fed her or if Yuno did that to herself. Honestly, that reminds me of my Vix; always calling me a parasite and trying to put thoughts into my head to break me. I wonder what Yuno would go through if she had sisters like the Vix’s kits.
Why couldn’t that stupid sperm donor say anything? I want to remember what my father was like before that Vix traded him away.
For that matter why couldn’t this Yukiteru Amano be more useful? I almost couldn’t feel my beloved’s essence come from him. How many of these branched out extensions have to be so far away from the only reprieve I have from these tasks? There was that one called Ikari, Ouma, ugh… they’re so flat. Them and those punks in black like that air skating hedgehog and the android with the pet wolf.
Sigh… here I go complaining about comparisons again. I miss you so much my love… I want to feel your confidence.
Meanwhile here I am, reminded of how I failed you. Like Yuno, I began to love an idea of you more than the real you. Unlike her, I had a life that I wanted to share with yours. Where I failed wasn’t just in timing, I spent so much time thinking only you were necessary. You… We had people who enriched our lives and I took them for granted. Especially when it looked like you never took sides, not even with me. But only a few people ever understood you, I wanted to feel like that meant something more. As if I needed to be worthy of you, more than I already was.
Now I have to wonder if I was ever worthy of being with them? Compared to these tools who don’t even use their precognitive devices to their fullest potential, our merry troupe learned to bring out one another’s best. When they could in the small moments anyway. The things you my love could always make note of because I was too caught up in trying to bring out your best.
Well Yuno, I can at least thank you for something. You and Amano taught me that love can’t be something to devote your life on. I still want my beloved back, but I need to build myself back together first.
…Still, while I’m here I should probably help set her straight.
Voice: I guess it’s time to show why I’ve got my name.
Narrator: You?
Deux Ex Machina: (Name’s In the space)
Voice: Of course, you’re the reason everything just happens isn’t it?
Deus: Not exactly. If anything I represent cause and effect around this central theme.
Voice: Is that why you look like Amano right now?
Deus: I honestly have as much control over things as you do. Although, I wouldn’t mind if you actually had a face.
Voice: Face? Are you reflecting Yuno’s appearance at me?
Deus: Actually, I’m holding my best guess of what you’re supposed to look like. Soft white fur, bushy tail, big enough to rest on my shoulder, triangular mouth, although I thought you would’ve had amber eyes not blue.
Fox: Wait, that’s what this all is, an interpretation.
Deus: One among many. You’re not the first to be displeased with something I made to amuse myself. It’s apparent that it aged badly too.
Fox: You’re not this world’s creator though, let alone the stand-in.
Deus: Exactly, people gave me meaning the way you did Yuno. You and so many more.
Fox: ……She’s a god…
Deus: And she didn’t even need my help.
Fox: Or mine, it’s everyone else who are lacking.
Deus: I’m pretty sure you’d exhaust yourself doing that all on your lonesome.
Fox: Well it’s not like this part of me has anything better to do.
Deus: Eh… Alright, you might be better than Muru Muru for this time around.
Yuno as she gets ready for her day but smells something rotten. The smell of rotten eggs as the fox suddenly appears in front of Yuno.
Fox: Konbawa, Yuno.
Yuno is surprised!
Fox: Ana ta ha genkaku deha ari masen.
Yuno is about to lose her balance as she falls onto her bed.
Fox: Shika shi, ana ta ha konran o kanjiru deshou.
Yuno sees images of all of the events that led to the events of the original manga.
Fox: Moushiwakearimasen ga, batorurowaiyaru ga hajimu maro u toshite i ru node, ta no jin o junbi su ru hitsuyou ga ari masu.
The fox takes Yuno’s cell phone.
Fox: Shi ha Osakisan desu.
Osakisan leaps out of Yuno’s window!
I don’t how long I have to stay in this world but I’m going to live in it my way.
Although… I didn’t expect Amano to give me the same feelings you did my love.
Wait!
…I don’t remember your name!
It’s Kuyi right? No, no, no! I’m getting you mixed up with Amano! I don’t want to forget you!
Oh good, Amano’s not that confident! I still remember that you’re red!
Red? Oh right, that’s the color of your fur.